Our Story. Our Lives.

Monday, November 22, 2004

this is my last entry.

we just ended our 7 mths 20 days r/s. its quite close to 8mth anniverysary huh. bd what matters nw is what we've had shared for this period of time. it so painful. it hurts soo much. i cant describe. i dont knw what i want to say.

i dont wna lose uuu darling!!

this is nt abrupt. its been smtime tt we've had problems. ending it is good too. being friends may be better. i might still be able to love u silently. like last time. bd this time round. its different. i wont tell uu and i wont show. before. i cld still tell uu. and im able to carry the hope of reconcilling with uu. nw. nt anymre. im gna keep everyth to myself. no matter hw much i want u back in my life. no matter hw much i love uu.

we've done alot together. i never regretted and i never will. as for all tt i've done for uu. it was purely and all out of love. i've loved uu deeply. and still loving u deeply nw. i so want u to be by my side. thank uu for everyth tt u've done for me. all the fond memories will be kept right here. u will always have a place right thr.

u've always been a wonderful boyfriend to me. rrly. pls believe me. reminding me to drink water. take panadols when im having those frequent headaches. opening chilli packets when u see tt im finishing mine. cleaning my mouth for me. feeding me. kissing and cleaning my tears away. hugging me when a nd a hug. coming all the here just so tt i can see uu. i will rmb tt time when we were at sentosa, u went all the way back to the tent just to get money to buy milo for me because i was having headache. u've always been a sweetie. esp tt day. putting on moisturing cream on each other. oh and u volunterring to carry my back for me. piggy backing me ard ur hs. sm of the greatest times was spent at ur hs. the tickling. the teasing. watching tv together. eating breakfast together. u cooking spagetti for me. it was the best meal ever. eating at the market. kuey chap. fried rice with bbq chicken wings. duck rice. and the most recent mince pork noodles tt u had given so much compliments on. sugarcane. chendol. watermelon sago. zui kuey. fried carrot cake without chilli. u sending me hm. at tt junction. we cycling together. we at 'sunset bay'. and tt day, when i had my class bbq. i miss u so much actually. the place where we shared our first kiss. the place we've shared so many memories. the list just goes on and on. so much which i dont wanna let go at all.

yesterday when uu asked. so are we over. as much as i wanted to say, no. let us talk things out. i told myself, no. tina be strong. u want the best for him. and this is the best way out. whatever happens to me, its just to me. at least he will be fine. he wont knw hw u are. its ok. yah.

i've nvr wanted to hurt u intentionally. i've always thought abt hw u wld feel. i've rrly nvr blamed uu. for anyth. the first time. nw. whatever. i dont care.
sorry tt i've hurt uu. i knw i did.

i've been loving u for so long. my life had been revolving ard urs for so long. u've been in my life so long. u've made many beautiful footsteps.

pls. take good care of urself. dont pretend to be strong. drink more water. eat well. if have gastric pain, take the medicine tt i have with uu. dont keep taking junk food ok. if ure sick, u can call me and i'll still go to ur hs and take care of uu. if u need help, just call me and i'll try my best to do whatever i can for uu. i will always be there for uu. call me if u want me to go out with uu. i'll try to make it free. dont worry abt me. u've been worrying abt me.

i love uu darling.
i love u hun.
i love u dear dear.
i love u dear.
i love u hubby.
i love u sweetie.
i love u handsome.
i love u baby.
so much. so much tt u'll nvr knw.

this is the last time.
it hurts more than anyth. more than what anyone cld imagine.

< nel.tina. > at 11:14:00 PM

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

awww.. so sweet of you to say all those. yup. we had been throught a lot. more that people could imagine. your actually only see the surface, but deep inside there were problems. never did we gave up, continue to perseverse and press on. it was great. priceless moments. like what i told you today. a time spend with you in never a waste of time. =)
i love you darling. muacks.

-nel

< nel.tina. > at 6:29:00 PM

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

yup yup. today is like the second day of my Os and my darling's first day and its our 7mths anniversary. see that? 7mths anniversary. check it out. its smth big to me aight. its so beautiful to be in ur love's life for so long. its so great to be in love. with uu. only uu.

thank you. hun. for everyth. every single thing. i will remember them. so many things to say. so many things to share with everyone tt's been reading our blog. we've been through alot. so much tt i never thought i wld ever be experiencing. never imagined to be so in love, with someone. nvr thought i could be in ur life agn. nvr thought i wld be able to have a place in ur heart, and to create such a sweet story with uu. so many things. so many unpredictable things. its uu. its because of uu, tt my once black and white life, became colourful.

i love uuu. i will continue to. till the day.

tina.

< nel.tina. > at 11:41:00 AM

Friday, October 15, 2004

things are so much better nw. u've been great darling. lets just enjoy and live at the moment. i love u! muaks.

< nel.tina. > at 9:52:00 PM

Sunday, October 03, 2004

havent updated for a long time. what can i share here??

i dont knw what to say.

rrly. hmm. this blog is called our story. our lives. yes. we have shared sometime of our lives together. we wrote this story together. it is such an interesting, and exciting book of our own. and also a story tt will soon come to an end. like the author of many books, any books, be it romance or detective, we knw the ending to this beautiful story. we are still writing tho. wld anyth. i mean anyth. tt we bth didnt expect, happen?? we're left to see for ourselves. one thing i do not understand. why? as one of the author? i have uncertainties, and fear the ending? why cant i possibly change the ending to the story tt i love so much?

i want to be oblivious. to everyth. i want to live in denial. because. only when im living in denial, living in what i believe in, can i be with uu. i love u dear.

< nel.tina. > at 11:15:00 AM

Friday, September 24, 2004

Yup. These few days had been been quite gd. In fact the past week had been great. Very happy and content as long as im with uu. Rrly.

Like what I say hun. I love uu for who u are. Everyth abt uu. Rmb everyth tt I told u just nw. I mean them.

I love u. so much. As always. Without any reason. Without a doubt.

-tina

< nel.tina. > at 8:04:00 PM

hmm.. been a long time since i blogged. let's see... we met after she finished her bio. she came over to my house. wanted to siwm actually but it rained. darn, second time in the row. seems like it's not fated for us to swim. we stayed over for a while before heading down to novena to eat dinner. early dinner. we took the bus down instead of the train. after dinner, we went home.
was indeed a great day. fun fun fun. it's always great spending time with you. muacks

-nel

< nel.tina. > at 7:22:00 PM

Friday, September 17, 2004

woah. have been going to dearie's hs practically everyday. hahahhas. come here then go library together after tt. ehs. hahas. had been spending alot of time together. life's great nw. rrly.

im at his hs nw too. ben's here. they're cooking macaroni.

i love u dear!!

< nel.tina. > at 1:36:00 PM