Our Story. Our Lives.

Sunday, June 27, 2004

good that you love the present. hahaha. and ya, although when school starts tomorrow, we will have little time together. we may not have enough time for each other. but i always know you're always there for me.

< nel.tina. > at 11:27:00 PM

dearie. rrly rrly sweet things u've said there. thns!!! yea. u've seen me in all ways. emotionally, and of cos physically. when im sick, when im hyper active, when im ugly, when im unkept, whatever. more than anyone has ever seen me before. u have stood by me. and still standing. beside me, like a strong, erect lighthouse.

shall talk abt today.

met him at harbour front, then we headed to sentosa. its like an advance celebration for my bdae. he bought me a rrrly pretty roxy bikini as my bdae present. whwahahahhas. smth tt i like!! bikinis!!! lols. thanks dear!! muaks! muaks! muaks!! hee. erms yea. he suggested changing out of mine and wearing the new one and i did. fits nicely. *grins. oh and we went into the water for the last 1 hr or so. we din actually did anyth. just suntanned and rotted there.

dear. i had a great time today. thns for accompanying me and of cos ur present for me! after today, we all gt to start mugging for the Os. like what i've told u, i'll be really busy frm now one. with sch, with hmt and with netball. i will definately have lesser time for the bth of us. bd i will try my very best to accompany u whenever i can. and if i were to neglect u unknowingly, pls let me know, cos i wont want tt to happen. aight?? one thing for sure, no matter how busy i am, how late in the night, how tired i am, and i see ur picture on my fone, knowing ure the one calling, i will pick up. tt's for sure. i will always have the time to listen to u. last thing, no matter how little time we have together, i will treasure it, and i promise, my love for u wont change. without a shadow of doubt, it wont. u will always be there in my heart.

i love u dear!
< nel.tina. > at 10:47:00 PM

i'm updating on what happened yesterday. we went out around late afternoon, to finish off any last shopping before the school starts. in the end i bought the nautica shorts(red). she wanted to buy the reef slippers but eventually didn't cos she concluded that she won't wear it much when school reopens. so we walked around orchard before meeting her sister-in-law(bei bei) for awhile. bei bei was getting a handphone for her dad. left soon after, went mos burger to buy her sister's dinner. we waited and met her sister's boyfriend at orchard mrt station before proceeding to Goodwood hotel there. a saloon, as she mentioned in her blog that's she was gonna get a hair spa treatment from her sister as a birthday present. it costs a cool $148. it lasted an hour plus. was with her all the while. she looked damn pretty wearing the robe. hahaha. the settings of the shop and the ambience was excellent. aroma therapy, soothing music and dim lights all played a part. it was cool. after her hair spa, she had a hair cut. she looked different after that. hahaha. new look but didn't last long. she looked amost the same before, only thing her hair is very much softer and nicer. and ya, the boss was saying that she tied her hair too tight! see darling, told you umpteen times. then after that we went to joo chiat(oh shucks, whatever the spelling is.) for bak ku teh. her sister sent me home after that. it was a memorable day.

i just wanna say that i have seen you in so many ways. like the "lion hair", new hair cut, in robe, it doesn't matter how you look like cos you always looks so beautiful to me and you always will be.
i love you.
< nel.tina. > at 10:16:00 PM

Friday, June 25, 2004

How to make a Nelson

Ingredients:

3 parts competetiveness

5 parts humour

5 parts joy

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity

Personality cocktail
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How to make a tina

Ingredients:

1 part mercy

3 parts crazyiness

5 parts courage

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add curiosity to taste! Do not overindulge!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

N	Naughty
E	Easy
L	Lively
S	Sexy
O	Odd
N	Noisy

Name Acronym Generator
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T	Tame
I	Intelligent
N	Nutty
A	Astounding

Name Acronym Generator
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-tina

< nel.tina. > at 12:18:00 PM

Thursday, June 24, 2004

as for the incident, you should know why i was like that. i was worried and don't want you to hide anything. ya, i'll always share your burdens. yup, i don't mind accompanying you at any time of the day, call me and i'll be there. anything for you darling. muacks.
miss you!

-nel
< nel.tina. > at 7:45:00 PM

we met after my netball trg. went novena for lunch. BK. have to fufil my promise, tt's to eat whopper with him. lols. original plan was to study thr, bd in the end, we decided we have no mood for tt and went swimming instead. *grins. erms. actually more like slack and rot in the pool. hahahhahhahas. it was nice. rrly.

thns dear! muaks. for accompanying me. u cld have slept more. sorie. hee. nvm. slp as long as u want tmr. forget abt pak hon. lols.

as for what happened just nw. i know u care abt me, don't want me to hide anyth inside, tt's why u asked yea?? i understand.

hugggggssssssss*********

-tina
< nel.tina. > at 7:13:00 PM

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u.
no matter how many of these i've said. it definitely can't beat and can't express how much love im feeling for u there. i love u dear.

wonderful and beautiful things u've said there. made me tear. i can't help it. everytime ure so nice and so super duper sweet to me, i'll feel weak. indeed. i totally can't imagine hw i'll be like without u to take care and pamper me next time when ure gone, when ure no longer there with me. no longer to tell me," darling, rmb to drink more water and rest early." to tell me, " darling, pls take ur medicine, i beg u." when im having headache. ure rrly ultra nice to me. it means more than anyth to me. anyth. ure sooooo impt. tt nth else matters. u don't know hw glad i am to have held on to the faith i have in u. held on to the trust tt i have in u despite what happened the first time. if this is what's coming after all the tears, all the pain tt i've went through, alone when we broke up, is worth it. totally worth it. im content with what i have nw. tt's u. everyth tt i ask for. u.

i love u. as always. thns dear. for everyth thing.

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 11:05:00 PM

hmm.. we chatted in the morning. abt the plans later. but later we thought of something. she coming over to my house first. so we were pretty keen about it and she came over early. changed and took pictures using the timer. was quite fun. then headed to town. shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop. she bought a zara skirt whilst i got a quiksilver pullover. happy with our buys. went home, took taxi from yck.

just to let you know that, i'm willing to do anything for you except maybe climbing the tallest moutain. i'm desperate for you. i'm lost without you. be my shelter. be my strong tower. be my comforter. be mine always.
I Love You!

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 10:06:00 PM

Monday, June 21, 2004

thns dear. for everyth tt u've said to me today. all the wonderful and sweet things. i know u've changed. i know how much u care abt our r/s nw and hw sorie u are abt hw u've treated me in the past. it doesnt matter anymore. cos we now have a chance to truly love each other all over agn. lets nt talk abt the past agn. it brings up sm painful memories. however, it is still impt to me. cos it was thru all those, tt i realise hw much i love u.

there's much more love. much more trust and stability in our r/s nw. i'll treasure all these. no matter what happens. no matter what.

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 10:26:00 PM

people. the tagboard is up, so do please give your comments after reading an entry. your comments will be greatly appreciated. thank you.

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 10:11:00 PM

well.. we talked on the phone in the afternoon.. she said that she misses me and i miss her too. so i decided to cycle to her house later in the evening, so that i can see her and she can see me. we sat at the park first, talking and just simply enjoying each others presence. i cycled she bladed. it was fun and cool. later alicia joined us. round and round the neighbourhood of lentor we went. later we went to another park also known as "sunset bay" due to some circumstances, chatted and then left soon after. she sent me off at a junction.

i just wanna let you know that whenever you need me, i'll always be there for you. i'm willing to do all these. i love you.

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 10:03:00 PM

Sunday, June 20, 2004

hey dearie. thns!! what u've said mean a lot to me. alot. all i wish for is for uu to be happy. tt's what i did all these for. im sure jacky and all too. its wonderful tt u appreciate and enjoyed urself.

erms. lets nt talk abt the past nw. the most impt thing is, nw tt we know hw impt we are to each other, we shld hold on to this, do whatever we can do to kp dis booootifuuulll r/s alive.

i love uu.

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 9:15:00 AM

Saturday, June 19, 2004

I would like to thank all individually. here it goes.

Adrian - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, kept the fire burning strongly, i appreciate that.
Alicia - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, i appreciate that too.
Benedict - Thank You for your shared present with Kenneth, i really like it. I'll remember that.
Gillian & Leang - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration and also staying over, i appreciate that.
Jillian - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration and also staying over, you also helped her along the way for this preparation. I appreciate that.
Kenneth - Thank You for your shared present with Benedict, i really like it. I'll remember that.
Pak Hon - Thank You for helping out on the preparation and monetary issue and also your white wine. I'll remember that.
Rai & Wan - Thank You for your polo shirt, it's reallly nice and i like it. I'll
remember that.
Shaharul - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, your tent and the help of setting up the fire. I appreciate that.
Wee Seng - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, and also helping us to buy the beers, i appreciate that.

Last but not least. My Lovely Darling! Tina Toh Soh Teng!
Without you, this whole thing wouldn't even happen. You took about a month to plan this. Getting people to come. Going all the way to Sentosa just to book the area, pit and tents. All your sweat and efforts. You won't know how grateful and thankful i feel. You're a beauty, a real beauty, with great personalities. What a fool i was to break up with you the first time round. But i'm not gonna let it happen this time round cos you are indispensable to me. All so important to me. I'm gonna stick to you like how your lip gloss is on your lips. That close! You will forever be in my heart. My steadfast love for you never ceases. I will always love you Tina!

-nel.

< nel.tina. > at 11:37:00 PM

i reached hm like 1.30 and slpt all the way till nw.

finally i can start slping well agn. haven't been slping well for the past few days becos of my dear dear's bdae. kept wondering if everyth will turn out well, well, it did. im rrly happy and thankful who make this a success. THANKS GUYS!!!!!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. if nt for you ppl, this party can nvr be held. shall go into the details nw.

met rai, jill and tiffany at yck mrt at 10.30 to pass them the chips, tongs, brushes, bottle opener, soccer ball and beach volley. they are gonna proceed to the destination, which is sentosa, with the rest. met my dear at 11.30 then we went sentosa.
pretended tt nth is gonna happen, no plans, just the two of us spending his bdae together. bd he did suspect tt i planned smth for him. plus i kept smsing after we met. had to report location. lols.we reached there after awhile. i was suppose to put suntann oil for him and then jacky and the gang will come and throw him into the sea. in the end, what happened was, he said he wanted to go to the toilet, then as we were walking there, the whole grp of them ran out. ben, jacky, kenneth, adrain, went out to get him. strip him and threw him into the water. tifi, jill, rai, alicia gt me. and i was too thrown in. i expected it. hahahs. alrites. then we all sat in the water and talk. i made all confessions. okae. soon after, we went to put our stuff. played sm games. suntanned with him, went into the water with him.

bbq started ard 6 plus. wee seng, shahrul, gi and leang came. we cut the cake then we played truth or dare. drank in the meanwhile. we all had fun. everyone took the monorail together. made alot of noise and all. went for a walk at the beach while the guys went to play beach volley. he told me alot of things. was rrly touched. they mean a whole lot to me. really. i chilled out with the girls after he came back while he played beach soccer. me n jill chilled in the tent too. with a can of heineken each and a packet of chips. talked and all. spent the whole night with dearie in the tent. he was tired and wanted to slp. i accompanied him. talked alot too. we came out a few times to eat and talk with the rest. chilled out by the beach in the morning. all of us went eat at habour front. all of us includes jill, ws, shahrul, jacky, ben, kenneth, adrain. i was having a gastric and i felt really bad. really bad. i slpt in the train on my way back. first time i rrly fall aslp in the train. i was tt tired and my gastric was tt bad. he sent me hm in a taxi. and ya. tt's abt all.

i had a great day. im sure u too. we've spent more than 24 hrs together for the first time. i have more memories to add to nw. i know deep inside tt if anyth shld happen to us this time round, it will be even harder for me to stand up on my own agn. i knew it. i wont ever be able to forget uu and i know, if we were to go our own ways, next time, no matter hw wonderful my next bf can be, the memories tt i will have with him, can nvr beat what i've been thru with uu. there's just too many things to forget. i wont ever want to forget anyth. even the quarrels and all. cos they play a part in our r/s. u've been in my life for ard 2 yrs for nw. it may be short or long, bd, u play a big part.

i love uu.

-tina.

< nel.tina. > at 8:54:00 PM

alrite alrite.. that was my best birthday yet. it was awesome. you know it's like after the surprise i was still in shock for like 30 mins at least. honestly. never had i expected that coming.. well done man.. they threw me into the sea and i was still so clean, but nvm, it's ok. =D then just sat around the water, trying to clear my doubts with my darling. so many questions to ask. hahaa. she wrote most of the things already. ya.. read on that.

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 2:03:00 PM

Thursday, June 17, 2004

weeee.. my birthday is tomorrow.. wonder what will my darling be doing. the anticipation is killing me. whatever the outcome will be, it will definitely be one heck of a fun day.

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 7:10:00 PM

Monday, June 14, 2004

Marie Carey. 98 degrees.
Thank God i Found uu.

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate
Myself from you
After so much suffering
I finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself
For the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
I don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Cause I need you in my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain
To appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby
I'm so thankful
I found you

[ i miss u. badly.]

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 12:51:00 PM

Saturday, June 12, 2004

thns for calling me tonight. we only talked for like only 2 mins or so. i wld love to talk to uu longer bd its okae. im happy tt we talked. its enuf. hee.
3 more days and u'll be back. i miss uu!

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 11:34:00 PM

Friday, June 11, 2004

i know its just gonna be 4 days. just 4 days, tt's it. and ure gonna be back agn, beside me. literally. accompanying me to wherever place i wld want to go, talking to me every night before i go to bed, asking me to drink water and stuff, msging me and all. i know im gonna miss u really badly. truckloads. yes. tt's for sure. pls come back safely. have lots of fun there, enjoy urself. maybe miss me alittle at night. tt's all i wish for. even tho u said u will call me if possible.

im beginning to appreciate u more and more. nt tt i don't in the past. just more. i've been taking all tt u have done into account, kping everyth in my mind. im totally aware of what u've done for me, what u've been doing actually. small things even. they mean a whole lot.

dear, im sorie for what i've said just nw. i really don mean it tt way. i don't refer to neth yea. i guess u know what i mean.
i trust uu. i rrly do.

i love uuu!!! .

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 9:51:00 PM

yea. as my dear was saying. we went ecp. had really lots and lots of fun. the sun was gd, the company was gd, everyth was great!! hee. i enjoyed myself. big tym man. guess i haven't had sooo much fun in a long while.

thns dear, for being sooo wonderfully nice to me. thns for sacrificing. thns for everyth tt u have done. i appreciate everyth and i will definitely kp them in my heart.
*muaks.

ure leaving tmr. shall write smth for u here tonight.

miss uu!!

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 11:30:00 AM

hmmm.. we went east coast park yesterday.. to blade obviously, her favourite. by the way, i don't know how to blade. anyway, we met at yck bus terminal and she was late. made me rushed so fast for nothing and as a result forgot to do certain stuff. but nvm, getting used to it. hahaha.. =] took an hour long ride there. ate mac for lunch. at far i saw this pink figure walking towards our direction and it looked like rai, and it was really her. O_O right on. after that i was supposed to cycle, was quite reluctant initially because the bikes there totally totally totally suck! she bladed as i cycled, was simple but cool. after those, we went to the rock area there to sit and just enjoy each others presence. it was really fun. sadly, it was time to chao, went to 7eleven to get some snacks and drinks. boarded the bus and vroooooooom, we're home. =D

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 11:08:00 AM

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

ooo..yesterday's entry was kinda depressing yea?? definitely i suppose. anyway. we sorta cleared up everyth and say whatever we want to say just nw. im rrly glad tt everyth is over. rrly glad. so yea.
and guess what?? i miss him!!!!!
*winks.

ahhh..nd to ciaos! meeting muh babes and teachers!! i'll be back!

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 3:25:00 PM

Monday, June 07, 2004

erms. well. im drinking a glass of red wine here, thinking hw exactly i shld pen dwn hw im feeling right nw.. its diff to describe. yea. it does.

i just ended a call with him. and ya.

many things had been happening for the past few days, causing much misery to the bth of us. things tt neither of us wish to happen, things tt maybe i cld have avoided. i don't know what else i shld say abt all these, i don't know hw to control where all my feelings or my heart is leading me to. i have quite alot of things on my mind nw. weird. maybe tt's what u call me. weird. tt's hw im feeling too. and tt's becos of a mixture of all kinds of feelings. im sorie.

im sorie, i can never handle this kind of things calmly, and optimistically. its smth tt i can nvr do, esp if it concerns u.
u mean too much to me, tt's why i can't stop worrying.

maybe i shld learn to take control of all my emotions, maybe i shld try to remove the gut feeling tt i have inside me. maybe all these will help to make our r/s a better one.

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 9:02:00 PM

Friday, June 04, 2004

Jessica Simpson
Take My Breathe Away.

Watchin' every motion
In this foolish lovers game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turnin' and returnin'
To some secret place inside
Watchin' in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watchin' I keep waiting
Still anticipatin' love
Never hesitatin'
To become the fated ones
Turnin' and returnin'
To some secret place inside
Watchin' in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid

Take my breath away
You take my breath away
You take my breath
You take my breath
You take my breath
Away
You take my breath away (repeat til' fade)

we just seem to hear this song whenever we're talking or when we're together or smth huh. wonder wassup. well. yea. shall blog agn ltr.
i miss uu.

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 8:31:00 PM

Thursday, June 03, 2004

i understand why you said those things.. so do not worry. trust me, it won't happen again. no matter how angry am i with you, when i think about our love, it'll definitely soften my heart. =D

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 10:42:00 PM

we went woodlands library today after remedial. had delifrance for lunch.

dear dear, im sorie abt what i've said in the afternoon. really sorie. i don mean it. im going to try my best to explain agn, even tho i think u've forgive me.
the other tym when u went away for 5 days, u left me for 1 yr plus. im just afraid the same thing will happen agn. u mean too much to me tt i wont allow u to leave me agn. i had to say tt because i know if i don, i'll think abt it in sm way or another. plus, like what we've promised each other, we're gonna let each other know everyth yea?? i don want uu to think tt im kping smth frm u.
i trust u dear. alot. bt there's just the fear. i noe ure hurt. im sorie.

i love u to the bits and pieces.

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 10:12:00 PM

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

hmmm.. alrite.. we're watching miss universe 2004 now. although i did say i like black hair girls. but australia was really hot! hahaha..

yesteday you came over to my house, took a bus all alone just to visit me. you took the lift which something you don't feel good abt. you bought me 'liang teh'. fed me porridge. lending your lap for me to lie. just simply taking care of me. it was great, awesome. more that what anyone could ask for. you rock!

you've seen my lowest and my highest point in my life.. through it all, you're always there for me. this is why i always love you.

-nel.
< nel.tina. > at 11:26:00 PM

Bet u must be slping soundly now. Poor sick boy. hahas. You better take good care of urself. It hurts to see you sick yea? Erms anyway, going to ur hs to visit u today was just smth tt i want to do. smth tt i wld love to do. im willing to do whatever i can to make u feel better. *smile

Happy Anniversary dear dear. Thanks for being so understanding. Thanks for being with me and taking care of me all the time. You mean alot to me. There's always a place for uu in my heart. No matter what. No matter when.

i love you.

-tina.
< nel.tina. > at 12:59:00 AM