Our Story, Our Lives.

the end.

2004-11-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

this is my last entry.

we just ended our 7 mths 20 days r/s. its quite close to 8mth anniverysary huh. bd what matters nw is what we've had shared for this period of time. it so painful. it hurts soo much. i cant describe. i dont knw what i want to say.

i dont wna lose uuu darling!!

this is nt abrupt. its been smtime tt we've had problems. ending it is good too. being friends may be better. i might still be able to love u silently. like last time. bd this time round. its different. i wont tell uu and i wont show. before. i cld still tell uu. and im able to carry the hope of reconcilling with uu. nw. nt anymre. im gna keep everyth to myself. no matter hw much i want u back in my life. no matter hw much i love uu.

we've done alot together. i never regretted and i never will. as for all tt i've done for uu. it was purely and all out of love. i've loved uu deeply. and still loving u deeply nw. i so want u to be by my side. thank uu for everyth tt u've done for me. all the fond memories will be kept right here. u will always have a place right thr.

u've always been a wonderful boyfriend to me. rrly. pls believe me. reminding me to drink water. take panadols when im having those frequent headaches. opening chilli packets when u see tt im finishing mine. cleaning my mouth for me. feeding me. kissing and cleaning my tears away. hugging me when a nd a hug. coming all the here just so tt i can see uu. i will rmb tt time when we were at sentosa, u went all the way back to the tent just to get money to buy milo for me because i was having headache. u've always been a sweetie. esp tt day. putting on moisturing cream on each other. oh and u volunterring to carry my back for me. piggy backing me ard ur hs. sm of the greatest times was spent at ur hs. the tickling. the teasing. watching tv together. eating breakfast together. u cooking spagetti for me. it was the best meal ever. eating at the market. kuey chap. fried rice with bbq chicken wings. duck rice. and the most recent mince pork noodles tt u had given so much compliments on. sugarcane. chendol. watermelon sago. zui kuey. fried carrot cake without chilli. u sending me hm. at tt junction. we cycling together. we at 'sunset bay'. and tt day, when i had my class bbq. i miss u so much actually. the place where we shared our first kiss. the place we've shared so many memories. the list just goes on and on. so much which i dont wanna let go at all.

yesterday when uu asked. so are we over. as much as i wanted to say, no. let us talk things out. i told myself, no. tina be strong. u want the best for him. and this is the best way out. whatever happens to me, its just to me. at least he will be fine. he wont knw hw u are. its ok. yah.

i've nvr wanted to hurt u intentionally. i've always thought abt hw u wld feel. i've rrly nvr blamed uu. for anyth. the first time. nw. whatever. i dont care.
sorry tt i've hurt uu. i knw i did.

i've been loving u for so long. my life had been revolving ard urs for so long. u've been in my life so long. u've made many beautiful footsteps.

pls. take good care of urself. dont pretend to be strong. drink more water. eat well. if have gastric pain, take the medicine tt i have with uu. dont keep taking junk food ok. if ure sick, u can call me and i'll still go to ur hs and take care of uu. if u need help, just call me and i'll try my best to do whatever i can for uu. i will always be there for uu. call me if u want me to go out with uu. i'll try to make it free. dont worry abt me. u've been worrying abt me.

i love uu darling.
i love u hun.
i love u dear dear.
i love u dear.
i love u hubby.
i love u sweetie.
i love u handsome.
i love u baby.
so much. so much tt u'll nvr knw.

this is the last time.
it hurts more than anyth. more than what anyone cld imagine.

awww..

2004-11-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

awww.. so sweet of you to say all those. yup. we had been throught a lot. more that people could imagine. your actually only see the surface, but deep inside there were problems. never did we gave up, continue to perseverse and press on. it was great. priceless moments. like what i told you today. a time spend with you in never a waste of time. =)
i love you darling. muacks.

-nel

Happy 7mths anniversary.

2004-11-02T11:41:00.001+08:00

yup yup. today is like the second day of my Os and my darling's first day and its our 7mths anniversary. see that? 7mths anniversary. check it out. its smth big to me aight. its so beautiful to be in ur love's life for so long. its so great to be in love. with uu. only uu.

thank you. hun. for everyth. every single thing. i will remember them. so many things to say. so many things to share with everyone tt's been reading our blog. we've been through alot. so much tt i never thought i wld ever be experiencing. never imagined to be so in love, with someone. nvr thought i could be in ur life agn. nvr thought i wld be able to have a place in ur heart, and to create such a sweet story with uu. so many things. so many unpredictable things. its uu. its because of uu, tt my once black and white life, became colourful.

i love uuu. i will continue to. till the day.

tina.

Happy 7mths anniversary.

2004-11-02T11:41:00.000+08:00

2004-10-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

things are so much better nw. u've been great darling. lets just enjoy and live at the moment. i love u! muaks.

complicated

2004-10-03T11:15:00.000+08:00

havent updated for a long time. what can i share here??

i dont knw what to say.

rrly. hmm. this blog is called our story. our lives. yes. we have shared sometime of our lives together. we wrote this story together. it is such an interesting, and exciting book of our own. and also a story tt will soon come to an end. like the author of many books, any books, be it romance or detective, we knw the ending to this beautiful story. we are still writing tho. wld anyth. i mean anyth. tt we bth didnt expect, happen?? we're left to see for ourselves. one thing i do not understand. why? as one of the author? i have uncertainties, and fear the ending? why cant i possibly change the ending to the story tt i love so much?

i want to be oblivious. to everyth. i want to live in denial. because. only when im living in denial, living in what i believe in, can i be with uu. i love u dear.

reply

2004-09-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

Yup. These few days had been been quite gd. In fact the past week had been great. Very happy and content as long as im with uu. Rrly.

Like what I say hun. I love uu for who u are. Everyth abt uu. Rmb everyth tt I told u just nw. I mean them.

I love u. so much. As always. Without any reason. Without a doubt.

-tina

bk

2004-09-24T19:22:00.000+08:00

hmm.. been a long time since i blogged. let's see... we met after she finished her bio. she came over to my house. wanted to siwm actually but it rained. darn, second time in the row. seems like it's not fated for us to swim. we stayed over for a while before heading down to novena to eat dinner. early dinner. we took the bus down instead of the train. after dinner, we went home.
was indeed a great day. fun fun fun. it's always great spending time with you. muacks

-nel

dear's hs

2004-09-17T13:36:00.000+08:00

woah. have been going to dearie's hs practically everyday. hahahhas. come here then go library together after tt. ehs. hahas. had been spending alot of time together. life's great nw. rrly.

im at his hs nw too. ben's here. they're cooking macaroni.

i love u dear!!

love.

2004-09-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

i love u. do continue to love me. do stay.

tina

re:

2004-09-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

ooooooooooo... that's how we spent our holidays man. 5 days of studying straight. crap. but one thing for sure, with my darling around, studying was never boring. she brightens the mood, put smiles on my face and the motivation to strive on. thank you daaaarling! you're awesome! i love you! *muacks

-nel

sep hols. fri.

2004-09-10T19:51:00.001+08:00

its fri alrdy. had been spending everyday together for the past 4 days. its the 5th day. everyday is gd with u ard. this sep hols is agn one tt past rrly fast. just like june's. because of the same reason. tt's uu. time flies when im with u. yea.

wont be seeing u tmr. neither on sun. so ya. im gna miss uu. as usual.

yup. just wish to say this.

i love uu!

tina

pleasure after displeasure

2004-09-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

things had been great for the past few days. lets just say it started on sun. well. yea. those were over. and nw we're gd. and happy. hahas. mon. dearie went to sch in the morning then i went to hs place after tt. went for dinner. market. it was a gd day.

tues. i had sch then met dearie at the library. studied for awhile then went to mac. ate and studied there. walked ard. bought curry puff. soya bean. walked walked then went hm.

wed. went dear's hs in the morning. had breakfast together. watched tv together. watched vcd. studied together for awhile. bd i knw bth of us were rather distracted. lols. each other's company was just so gd. everyth was fun. nt only yesterday. everyday.

today. went for breakfast at mac. then studied at the library. then kfc. then hm.

days will always be gd. with u in my heart tt is. u play a big part in my life. since i fell in love with u. through gd times and bad times. i always had u right there. can u see it?? there. the red thumping heart. engraved. nelson. my love. its thumping hard and strong. only if ya there.

tina

bad.

2004-09-04T13:57:00.000+08:00

we are together. i love u. like crazy. i knew i have nvr been in love before after u came into my life. this is first love? this is beautiful. i want u so much. all i care is abt us. abt what we have shared. nth else matters to me. i dont want to see uu this way. i dont want to see us this way.

isnt it all tt matters nw??

are all those things tt happened in the past soo impt to u?? more than what we have shared in this 5mths 2 days?? more than the love tt we shared? more than seeing us bth happy?? seeing our relationship up and going?

isnt worth to see our r/s going down because of smone whom i dont even care? isnt worth to let each other go despite hw much we love each other??

read our blog if u have the time. is it worth carrying on all these? are all tt i have done in the past, all the wrong things, more than what we have shared? more than hw much we love each other.

is it worth reading those things agn and agn and letting them destroy everyth tt u have in me? when i was single and stupid at tt time? u were there in my heart. deep dwn. right there. smwhere where u cldnt see. smwhere tt no one can ever reach.

i am sooo wrong. i knw. i hate myself. i hate myself for letting all these happened.

im sorry my dear. im willing to do anyth to bring us what we had. to allow us to continue this beautiful fairytale.
choose to nt believe what i say nw if u want. bd i mean them.

tina

2004-09-04T13:21:00.000+08:00

I try but I can't seem to get myself
To think of anything but you
Your breath on my face
Your warm gentle kiss, I taste the truth
I taste the truth
You know what I came here for
So I won`t ask for more

Chorus
I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you
So I`ll hold you tonight
Like I would if you were mine
To hold forever more
And I`ll savor each touch that I wanted
So much to here before (To feel before)
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this

Repeat Chorus

Oh baby
I can`t fight this feeling anymore
It drives me crazy when I try to
So call my name
Take my hand
And make my wish,
Baby, your command

Yeah
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
(I wanna be) I wanna be with you (I wanna be with you)
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you (Yeah)
(I wanna be with you) I wanna be
I wanna be with you
(I wanna be)
(I wanna be)
(I wanna be with you) Yeah
(I wanna be with you)
I wanna be, I wanna be baby
I wanna be
(I wanna be with you)
I wanna be with you, yeah
I wanna be with you

tina

hee.

2004-08-23T17:55:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU TINA TOH!
MY ONE AND ONLY DAAAAARLING!
YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME!
I LOVE YOU HOTTIE!
*muacks

-nel

library. s11

2004-08-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

had a great great great day dear! it just feels so gd to see u after 2 hrs plus of boring bio lesson. after a long day. thns for waiting for me. and ur friends. hahhas. its feels so gd to go out with uu. even like its to the library to study. its the company man. hahhas. ate fries and drank hot choco. studied while listening to ur fav christian songs. they were cool. yes. nice music. hahahs. left for dinner ard 7.30. s11. u were kinda pissed with tt erms. impolite uncle yea?? nvm abt him. lols. anyway, thanks for sparing tt thought for me. i wldnt wanna stay there with him alone man. i knw u always think abt me before urself. thns for being so nice. so great. so gracious. hee. guess the bth of us were crazy and hyper and all. and of cause, that means fun. fun. fun.
ohh. thns for sending me hm too. it was late.

i love u soo much. i cant imagine myself being so close, so imtimate with anyone else. thns for staying with me.

-tina.

re:

2004-08-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

yea. we want to see each other badly. so badly tt we became frustrated when we were discussing what to do. lols.

it was great meeting uu. for just like 1/2 and hr. its enough to make my day. enough to make me want to eat my first meal of the day. hee. thns dear!! rrly sweet things u've said. i love uu soooo much!! just tooo much.

*muaks.

-tina.

sunset bay

2004-08-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

well.. we wanted to see each other badly today, was supposed to go out for dinner after my stuff, but decided not to as it was getting real late. i then went over to her place to meet her, the park area which is just behind ahmad's house. ha. we chatted, teased, laughed, cuddled and tickled. yup, you heard it. you know people, all this are simple stuff, where anyone does it. but when you're in love, this simple things are not simple anymore. ya. confuse ? then too bad.. haha.. hope you get what i'm saying. so darling, thank you for loving me. i love you! muacks.

-nel

re:

2004-08-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

i second that! tues was a great and happening day. yup, happening. hahaha. told you, it will be damn unfair to judge this relationship solely on things that you did to me. not worth it, ya. i'm holding on to someone that is almost impossible to let go and obviously i don't want to, period. My love for you is marked by unconditional commitment, unstinting devotion and unreserved enthusiasm.
i love you. muacks.

-nel

his hs.

2004-08-18T09:33:00.000+08:00

well. lets just say yesterday was a great great great day!! mon didnt go very well. in fact, very bad. we've been having quite abit of probs actually. bth of us were damn sad. yea dear? we're fine. all and well nw. happy for us?? hee. hmm. anyway, we were supposed to go sun tanning after common tests. he waited for me. hee. so we gt to go back to his hs to get his stuff first. in the end, we ended up rotting at his hs. lols. we decided tt we were bth tired and lazy. slept on his bed. note: just slping. nth else. lols. after tt we bathed and went out for dinner. its act breakfast, cum lunch, cum dinner. hahhas. kfc at novena. studied there for awhile. bth of us were singing alng to the songs playing. its so diff to concentrate. went hm after tt.

i had a great day yesterday dear. thns. u helped me make it a great day for bth of us. thns for holding on to me. im soo glad neither of us let go of each other. we're still holding on. strong. just like before. lets continue to walk hand in hand, till the end of the route. the route of our love.
*huugggsss

-tina.

re:

2004-08-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

oh yes. the movie, "the notebook" wasn't as bad i thought it would be. a nice, loving and romantic movie. it will surely touch everyone who watches it. yaaa.. the relationship is much better now compared to the past week's. things looking more positive now. i'm happy about it too. i love you too. muacks.

ps: an actor sat behind us while we were watching there. if any of you know him, he is the one that acted in the sitcom Light Years as 'Bobby'. The taiwanese singer. nothing to feel excited about anyway. just normal people.

-nel

the notebook

2004-08-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

" watched 'the notebook' together yesterday. it was indeed a nice and romantic show. thns dear for accompanying me knowing tt u didnt actually want to watch it. hee. bd ya agree tt it's nice didnt u?? the movie was good, the company was great, what more can i ask for?? lols. felt so much better yesterday after going out with uu. guess i just gt to get tt feeling out. things hadnt been quite good b/w us yea? hopefully after yesterday, things between us will get much better. it did improve yea? quite abit i guess. and im real elated. hee.
i look forward to a much better relationship with uu!! i love uu hun. ayes. its okay to say it agn aight?? i love uuuu!!!!!!!!"

*hugggsss and kisses

-tina.

ecp

2004-08-08T09:10:00.000+08:00

hey guys. saw the tagboard and realised we rrly havent been updating for a loooooonnnnnggggg time. yea. bth of us are busy. in fact. i am busy. tt's why.

erms. had a "talk" at khatib mrt then we went to ecp. shall just talk abt ecp. went to macdonalds. bth of us were darn hungry. and then after tt, we went to the beach. we sat there, talked, lay on the grass under the sun, talked. it was nice. i love the sun. i love the company. most importantly, i love him. hee. erms. took tt long bus ride hm and ya.

i went to rasa at night. fd testing for my bro's wedding. the fd was nt bad. the waiter went ard serving everyone. dear. i soooo hope tt u cld be there man. rrly. be part of my famliy. hahahs. i kept thinking of u when i was there. ur bdae where we celebrated at sentosa too. it was sooo nice. this june hols was one of the best hols i had. rrly.

miss u. pls take care of urself yea when u go out. cos i will always be waiting for u to be back beside me, to be in my arms agn.
i love u baby.

ps: to tt guy/girl whoever u are. it doesnt matter what u write here. we are in a world of ours. nth else matters because we are sooo in love. are uu?? and, our friends are with us. always. what abt u??

-tina.

2004-07-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

oh yes i did had an enjoyable day as always. as long as your presence is there, it's something i always want. we can get some more chicken pie the next time. hahaha.
true, our relationship hasn't been a bed of roses, but we came out stronger than before. understanding each other immensely. loving each other even more. my love for
you has never decreases, it just keep increasing and increasing.

i love you a whole lot too darling. muacks.

-nel.

bon jovi. all abt loving u

2004-07-28T21:11:00.000+08:00

Bon Jovi. All abt loving uu.

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me & you
Mistakes I know I’ve made a few
I took some shots that fail from time to time baby
You were there to pull me through
Been around that block a time or two
I’m gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how I’ve come this far
The answer’s written in my eyes
Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you
I’ve lived I’ve loved I’ve lost I’ve paid some dues
And baby we’ve been to hell and back again
Through it all you’re always my best friend
For all the words I didn’t say
and all the things I didn’t do
tonight I’m gonna find a way
Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you
you can take this world away and everything I am
Leave the lines upon my face
I´m all about loving you
I’m all about
I’m all about
I’m all about loving you
Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you
I’m all about loving you

-tina.

disputes. love

2004-07-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

dearie. firstly i wld like to day tt i had an enjoyable day agn today. as usual yea? im sure u did too. btw. im thinking of the chicken pie nw. agn. lols.

urhs. dearie. i guess u will agree with me, tt our r/s isnt exactly like a bed of roses. occasionally we will have disputes or smth. bd nth toooo serious just yet. i wldntn want any. bd rrly, whose r/s is?? ya? just want to leave u a little note her. just to let u knw, tt all these disputes wldnt change the depth of my love for u. i will continue to love u like hw i did frm the start. yea?? love ya as always.

-muaks

cya tmr!! miss ya!!!!

-tina

swim. novena

2004-07-23T20:41:00.000+08:00

another beautiful day spent with u. at the same place. it wasnt boring or anyth. it was fun. simply because im with u.

mt dearie after my bio class. he didnt go to sch because he overslpt and i miss him soooooooooooooooo much. look at the no. of oooooooooos and u'll know hw much i miss him. hee. erms anyway. we swam for awhile then went novena for dinner agn. its kfc this time round. tt's seriously the weirdest and quietest kfc outlet i've ever been to man. lols. werid ppl ard. alritte. then we went to the fdcourt for desert. red ruby. bd he ate most of him. i was freezing and full. tt's why. spent smtym at the mrt station. he took 825 with me today. i asked him to. i want more of him.

dearie. we cant seem to get enough of each other. like what we said just nw. one thing for sure, i dont ever want to get enough of u. able to spend with uu, is smth tt i always look forward to. pls, dont leave me. stay. for a simple reason. i need uu!! i want uu!!!

missing you
- darling.

my love.

2004-07-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm back. Weee.. Hmmm.. Updates are lesser these few days because we're both busy. So ya. Anyway, my darling had a busy day. After normal school ended, we went to 795 and eat a quick lunch as she was sick of school food. She then had social studies and physics remedial till bout 1530. She had netball competition after that. Such a long day right? Poor babe. I went to swim anyway. We met at Yck mrt station before heading to Novena Square foodcourt to eat our dinner cos i know if we were to go home straight, she would not eat her dinner. So ya. Had lots of fun, teasing, joking and stuff. Was a great experience. The open area of Novena Square, they had big group of middle-age people, working the moves out in line dancing. It was cool, what's
best was darling sang a song to me which was playing entitled My Love by Westlife. I tell you that experience was one of the greatest anyone could ever wished for. So sweet, so touching, so moving, so emotional! Just awesome! Hugs and kisses were obviously shared. Heeeeee. Did some window shopping and went home soon after.

My darling, Tina, you're someone so special to me. I mean the best person for me. Who can ever replace you ? I highly doubt so. Be with me always. I love you! muacks.

-nel

re:

2004-07-17T12:51:00.000+08:00

oh yes... been a long time. hahaha.. ya, starbucks on weds was interesting. very indeed. hahaa.. and oh.. fort canning was super duper fun cos it was like we're both so hyper and lost our sanity. hence it was fun! bag was heavy, and all my vitamin c pills fell out of the bottle. in other words, no more vitamin c for me. boo. naaa.. you were not heavy at all. =D was cool carrying my darling around. hahaa.. hmm.. about the promise, you already know what to do. so ya. good good.

i just wanna thank you for being there just now, during that time when i was really screwed and stuff. you helped me overcome that much more easier. muacks.

i love you darling.

-nel

fort canning

2004-07-17T12:28:00.000+08:00

woah. we havent been updating for a mighty mighty long time yea. bth of us are busy, with sch and of cos with ourselves. hahhas. so ya. anyway. im here alrdy. hee. shall get started.

wed.
went starbucks at ttsh. the quiet one. our first time there together. talk. and chill out. lols. it was "interesting" rights dear?? lols. sorie. private. whahahhahahas. *evil

yesterdae. fri.
stayed back in sch for bio lesson and mrs mattews din wanna let us go. and apparently, her reason was, girls are made of sugar. since it was raining, we'll all melt. so ya. lesson was supposed to end at 2 bd dragged till abt 2.30. i rushed all the way down because dearie was waiting for me. we then procceeded to fort canning. ahahhahs. walked walked. nice. the weather wasnt extremely hot tt's why. although our bags were heavy. hahahs. i had a fun time. thanks for carrying me, dear. havent been carried in the arms for a super long time. hope i wasnt too heavy. lols. it was all so fun. guessed we were bth crazy. kept laughing and all. ahhhh i cant stop saying. FUN! FUN! FUN! had bk at PS after tt then we went hm. the train ride wasnt very gd though. because of smths tt i thought of and said. anyway, dear, i will try my best to make tt promise. however, things were fine ltr. as usual. we can nvr be angry for a long time. hahhas. isnt tt wonderful??! hahhas.

" i rrly felt so helpless just nw. i so cldnt do anyth even though i know how sad and how pissed u were with urself. it was such a bad feeling. altho, in the end, it was just a false alarm, i realised smth. and tt is hw impt u are to me. and how much ur feelings can affect me. "

i love uuu. gonna miss u hun!!!!

-tina

re:mean girls

2004-07-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

well, yea. like hw it goes. basically. as for me, i had 4 periods of bitching lessons. lols. and the only thing tt i looked forward to, was to go out with him after sch. rrly. its smth tt i wld always look forward to. and ya. it was once agn, a great day.

as long as im with u, as long as ure by my side, im happy. tt's all i want. im glad i've found u!

-tina

mean girls

2004-07-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.. she passed me a sandwich which is her 'usual'. Kinda interesting though. Crabmeat, hotdog and 'melted' cheese altogether with two skinless slices of bread. Tina's usual. You guys might wanna try it out. Then school school school.. blah blah blah.. nothing special. We went to catch a movie. Mean Girls that is. it's really a very nice show. i'll rate it 4/5. it's that good. what more lindsay lohan acting right? pretty babe. hehe.. sorry dear, but as you know already. oh ya, we smuggled chocolates in! haha.. after the show we went to fort canning park for a while, just to enjoy each others presence. that's all people. nothing much happened. =D vroooom.. both of us are home now.

-nel

reply. love ya too.

2004-07-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

tt entry of urs melted my heart, and then the title. love you as always. nice. twice today, i cried and i teared because of the wonderful things tt u've said to me. the promises tt u've made. they meant soooo much to me tt i cant explain. at all. i was stumped. in the bus. i don't know what to say. i cld only tell u at tt point of time, "i love u". they meant more than tt. rrly, i swear they did. the tears were of happiness and of relieve. tt i know i will always have u by my side. i will always have u loving me and taking good care of me. im dependent on u now. ure an essential, no longer a want. that was a loong long time ago when i have not discovered how impt u are to me.

love u. as always too. i'll stand by u. like how u did. thns dear!!

love you as always

2004-07-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

hmm.. she had netball training today and i went to play soccer with my friends. it was fun. during her breaks she came over to the basketball court to see me. hehe.. was feeling good then. real good. ate in school but not really together. different timing. she went to send tiffany out to the MRT station. before we headed out to 795. she wanted teh ping and i got myself some chocolate. after everything, we went over to yishun interchange there to eat our dinner. she had cravings for hokkien mee for the past 2 days. so obviously i will bring her there to eat. ya. ate, chatted, and teased me. then went home together taking the same bus.

darling darling darling. oh oh oh. i love to see your face and i always want to. i can't stop thinking of you and i'll never will. i can't stop missing you and i won't want to. i won't want to leave you cause i can never bear to do so again. you're the only reason why everyday is such an amazing fairy tale. you're the only reason to my happiness.
i love you so much! i'll end with this.

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

-nel.

reply.

2004-07-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

yup. as what my darling said. it was a beautiful day. simple but great. had lots of fun. teasing and stuff. thank you for loving me too. i'm so immensely in love with you. a couple made in heaven. you're amazing. you're wonderful. you're beautiful. you're the greatest. no one else can
touch my heart like you do, i could search for eternity long and find there is none like you. i love you!

-nel

swim. library

2004-07-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

weeeee~~~~~~ i had a wonderful day today. wonderful. great. yup. tt's it. went suntanning at yck in the afternoon with dearie. spent smtym soaking in the water too. hee. then, we went to eat macdonalds. had a craving for big n'tasty. hahahhas. i've been eating alot. and nt only alot, bd unhealthy fd. hais. hahahhas. no wonder im 'growing'. right dear??? lols. okay. get back to the story. erms. went to the library. to so called 'study'. did alittle only. went to buy vanilla coke. another of my craving. hahas. and nw. im hm. just gt hm nt long ago. dearie sent me hm. cos it was late. and he wants to. hee. *grins.

thns for constantly being there for me. thns for constantly showering ur love on me. thns for loving me. pls continue to do so, because im telling u, i will.
im loving u more and more each day. ure part of my life.

-tina.

reply

2004-07-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

happy 3 month anniversary to you too darling. indeed it was a unique way to celebrate, but it was cool, not many will do that i guess. regarding to the case that we only have 1 day a week to meet, beginning right now. just do what you're supposed to do, don't worry about me. i understand it all. yup. although it's very sad for me but that's life.
i love you too.

-nel

Happy 3mths anniversary!

2004-07-02T20:16:00.000+08:00

DEARIE!!! HAPPY 3 MTHS ANNIVERSARY!!! LOVE YOU. LOVE YOO. LOVE U.

had fun today. i guess u did too yea?? it was a special 3mths celebration. with all ur friends ard. hahas. sooo. we've actually been together for 7mths, 1 week and 5 days in total. tt's short. bd it feels like we've been together for a long time. we're sooooo connected yea?? okae. sorie abt having to tell u the news tt i cant meet u next wed. rrly sorie. u knew tt i'm a pretty busy person. right?? i hate nt being able to mt u too. seriously. sad. =[ bd i have my responsibilities. sorie. i know ya understand. bd i feel bad too. yoo go out with ur friends aight?? don't be sad. make ur plans. i can have lunch with u everyday. we go out next fri?? watch movie?? havent done tt for a long time. once agn. rrly sorie. i swear im gonna miss u altho im able to see u and talk to u.

-tina
im sorie. i love u. -missing yoo.

reply

2004-07-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

gee.. thanks for that lovely comment. so sweet of you. it's true and i'm aware of it. thank you for loving me. it's the same for me too. i love you for who you are and not what you are.

my bdae.

2004-07-01T19:48:00.000+08:00

man....i haven come here for a looooooong time yea?? am gonna update abt my bdae. had been delaying and finally im gonna spare myself a few mins. hee.

okae. met my dear in the morning cos he wants to be the first one to wish me happy birthday. hahahhas. alrites. then after tt, we went to sch. sch was alrites. nth much. quite a few ppl wished me. thns agn!!! fifi gave me a card, a bar of choco and a bookmark. rai, yanti n priss gave me a nice orange thong. hahhas. okae. fifi bought me a cake. strawberry shortcake and we celebrated during lunch. it was a rrly nice cake. she actually remembered me saying tt i like tt cake.

went macritchie with dearie after sch. just for awhile. soon after, we left for swensens at thomson. was planning to have a gd meal. in the end, i had tt sudden craving for chicken rice, so we decided to just get dwn at the next stop. and walk to the chicken rice tt i always go. after tt, we walked to thomson plaza and had ice cream at swensens. it was a simple day. bd nice. its enough for me. im content. cos i have my friends and of cos, him. i also felt as tho i've celebrated mine, on his bdae. so ya.

dearie. it rrly doesnt matter whether ure romantic or nt. cos tts nt impt. tt's nt what made me fall in love with u agn and agn. its u. rmb, u. as a whole. tt's what i love.

reply

2004-06-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

good that you love the present. hahaha. and ya, although when school starts tomorrow, we will have little time together. we may not have enough time for each other. but i always know you're always there for me.

sentosa.

2004-06-27T22:47:00.000+08:00

dearie. rrly rrly sweet things u've said there. thns!!! yea. u've seen me in all ways. emotionally, and of cos physically. when im sick, when im hyper active, when im ugly, when im unkept, whatever. more than anyone has ever seen me before. u have stood by me. and still standing. beside me, like a strong, erect lighthouse.

shall talk abt today.

met him at harbour front, then we headed to sentosa. its like an advance celebration for my bdae. he bought me a rrrly pretty roxy bikini as my bdae present. whwahahahhas. smth tt i like!! bikinis!!! lols. thanks dear!! muaks! muaks! muaks!! hee. erms yea. he suggested changing out of mine and wearing the new one and i did. fits nicely. *grins. oh and we went into the water for the last 1 hr or so. we din actually did anyth. just suntanned and rotted there.

dear. i had a great time today. thns for accompanying me and of cos ur present for me! after today, we all gt to start mugging for the Os. like what i've told u, i'll be really busy frm now one. with sch, with hmt and with netball. i will definately have lesser time for the bth of us. bd i will try my very best to accompany u whenever i can. and if i were to neglect u unknowingly, pls let me know, cos i wont want tt to happen. aight?? one thing for sure, no matter how busy i am, how late in the night, how tired i am, and i see ur picture on my fone, knowing ure the one calling, i will pick up. tt's for sure. i will always have the time to listen to u. last thing, no matter how little time we have together, i will treasure it, and i promise, my love for u wont change. without a shadow of doubt, it wont. u will always be there in my heart.

i love u dear!

birthday treat from sis

2004-06-27T22:16:00.000+08:00

i'm updating on what happened yesterday. we went out around late afternoon, to finish off any last shopping before the school starts. in the end i bought the nautica shorts(red). she wanted to buy the reef slippers but eventually didn't cos she concluded that she won't wear it much when school reopens. so we walked around orchard before meeting her sister-in-law(bei bei) for awhile. bei bei was getting a handphone for her dad. left soon after, went mos burger to buy her sister's dinner. we waited and met her sister's boyfriend at orchard mrt station before proceeding to Goodwood hotel there. a saloon, as she mentioned in her blog that's she was gonna get a hair spa treatment from her sister as a birthday present. it costs a cool $148. it lasted an hour plus. was with her all the while. she looked damn pretty wearing the robe. hahaha. the settings of the shop and the ambience was excellent. aroma therapy, soothing music and dim lights all played a part. it was cool. after her hair spa, she had a hair cut. she looked different after that. hahaha. new look but didn't last long. she looked amost the same before, only thing her hair is very much softer and nicer. and ya, the boss was saying that she tied her hair too tight! see darling, told you umpteen times. then after that we went to joo chiat(oh shucks, whatever the spelling is.) for bak ku teh. her sister sent me home after that. it was a memorable day.

i just wanna say that i have seen you in so many ways. like the "lion hair", new hair cut, in robe, it doesn't matter how you look like cos you always looks so beautiful to me and you always will be.
i love you.

quiz

2004-06-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

How to make a Nelson

Ingredients:

3 parts competetiveness

5 parts humour

5 parts joy

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity

Personality cocktail
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How to make a tina

Ingredients:

1 part mercy

3 parts crazyiness

5 parts courage

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add curiosity to taste! Do not overindulge!

Personality cocktail
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N	Naughty
E	Easy
L	Lively
S	Sexy
O	Odd
N	Noisy

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T	Tame
I	Intelligent
N	Nutty
A	Astounding

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-tina

swim swim

2004-06-24T19:45:00.000+08:00

as for the incident, you should know why i was like that. i was worried and don't want you to hide anything. ya, i'll always share your burdens. yup, i don't mind accompanying you at any time of the day, call me and i'll be there. anything for you darling. muacks.
miss you!

-nel

swim

2004-06-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

we met after my netball trg. went novena for lunch. BK. have to fufil my promise, tt's to eat whopper with him. lols. original plan was to study thr, bd in the end, we decided we have no mood for tt and went swimming instead. *grins. erms. actually more like slack and rot in the pool. hahahhahhahas. it was nice. rrly.

thns dear! muaks. for accompanying me. u cld have slept more. sorie. hee. nvm. slp as long as u want tmr. forget abt pak hon. lols.

as for what happened just nw. i know u care abt me, don't want me to hide anyth inside, tt's why u asked yea?? i understand.

hugggggssssssss*********

-tina

i love u.

2004-06-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u.
no matter how many of these i've said. it definitely can't beat and can't express how much love im feeling for u there. i love u dear.

wonderful and beautiful things u've said there. made me tear. i can't help it. everytime ure so nice and so super duper sweet to me, i'll feel weak. indeed. i totally can't imagine hw i'll be like without u to take care and pamper me next time when ure gone, when ure no longer there with me. no longer to tell me," darling, rmb to drink more water and rest early." to tell me, " darling, pls take ur medicine, i beg u." when im having headache. ure rrly ultra nice to me. it means more than anyth to me. anyth. ure sooooo impt. tt nth else matters. u don't know hw glad i am to have held on to the faith i have in u. held on to the trust tt i have in u despite what happened the first time. if this is what's coming after all the tears, all the pain tt i've went through, alone when we broke up, is worth it. totally worth it. im content with what i have nw. tt's u. everyth tt i ask for. u.

i love u. as always. thns dear. for everyth thing.

-tina.

shopping!

2004-06-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

hmm.. we chatted in the morning. abt the plans later. but later we thought of something. she coming over to my house first. so we were pretty keen about it and she came over early. changed and took pictures using the timer. was quite fun. then headed to town. shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop shop. she bought a zara skirt whilst i got a quiksilver pullover. happy with our buys. went home, took taxi from yck.

just to let you know that, i'm willing to do anything for you except maybe climbing the tallest moutain. i'm desperate for you. i'm lost without you. be my shelter. be my strong tower. be my comforter. be mine always.
I Love You!

-nel.

thns

2004-06-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

thns dear. for everyth tt u've said to me today. all the wonderful and sweet things. i know u've changed. i know how much u care abt our r/s nw and hw sorie u are abt hw u've treated me in the past. it doesnt matter anymore. cos we now have a chance to truly love each other all over agn. lets nt talk abt the past agn. it brings up sm painful memories. however, it is still impt to me. cos it was thru all those, tt i realise hw much i love u.

there's much more love. much more trust and stability in our r/s nw. i'll treasure all these. no matter what happens. no matter what.

-tina.

tagboard.

2004-06-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

people. the tagboard is up, so do please give your comments after reading an entry. your comments will be greatly appreciated. thank you.

-nel.

hee.

2004-06-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

well.. we talked on the phone in the afternoon.. she said that she misses me and i miss her too. so i decided to cycle to her house later in the evening, so that i can see her and she can see me. we sat at the park first, talking and just simply enjoying each others presence. i cycled she bladed. it was fun and cool. later alicia joined us. round and round the neighbourhood of lentor we went. later we went to another park also known as "sunset bay" due to some circumstances, chatted and then left soon after. she sent me off at a junction.

i just wanna let you know that whenever you need me, i'll always be there for you. i'm willing to do all these. i love you.

-nel.

RE: message

2004-06-20T09:15:00.000+08:00

hey dearie. thns!! what u've said mean a lot to me. alot. all i wish for is for uu to be happy. tt's what i did all these for. im sure jacky and all too. its wonderful tt u appreciate and enjoyed urself.

erms. lets nt talk abt the past nw. the most impt thing is, nw tt we know hw impt we are to each other, we shld hold on to this, do whatever we can do to kp dis booootifuuulll r/s alive.

i love uu.

-tina.

message

2004-06-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

I would like to thank all individually. here it goes.

Adrian - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, kept the fire burning strongly, i appreciate that.
Alicia - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, i appreciate that too.
Benedict - Thank You for your shared present with Kenneth, i really like it. I'll remember that.
Gillian & Leang - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration and also staying over, i appreciate that.
Jillian - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration and also staying over, you also helped her along the way for this preparation. I appreciate that.
Kenneth - Thank You for your shared present with Benedict, i really like it. I'll remember that.
Pak Hon - Thank You for helping out on the preparation and monetary issue and also your white wine. I'll remember that.
Rai & Wan - Thank You for your polo shirt, it's reallly nice and i like it. I'll
remember that.
Shaharul - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, your tent and the help of setting up the fire. I appreciate that.
Wee Seng - Thank You for coming and being part of the celebration, and also helping us to buy the beers, i appreciate that.

Last but not least. My Lovely Darling! Tina Toh Soh Teng!
Without you, this whole thing wouldn't even happen. You took about a month to plan this. Getting people to come. Going all the way to Sentosa just to book the area, pit and tents. All your sweat and efforts. You won't know how grateful and thankful i feel. You're a beauty, a real beauty, with great personalities. What a fool i was to break up with you the first time round. But i'm not gonna let it happen this time round cos you are indispensable to me. All so important to me. I'm gonna stick to you like how your lip gloss is on your lips. That close! You will forever be in my heart. My steadfast love for you never ceases. I will always love you Tina!

-nel.

dearie's bdae

2004-06-19T20:54:00.000+08:00

i reached hm like 1.30 and slpt all the way till nw.

finally i can start slping well agn. haven't been slping well for the past few days becos of my dear dear's bdae. kept wondering if everyth will turn out well, well, it did. im rrly happy and thankful who make this a success. THANKS GUYS!!!!!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. if nt for you ppl, this party can nvr be held. shall go into the details nw.

met rai, jill and tiffany at yck mrt at 10.30 to pass them the chips, tongs, brushes, bottle opener, soccer ball and beach volley. they are gonna proceed to the destination, which is sentosa, with the rest. met my dear at 11.30 then we went sentosa.
pretended tt nth is gonna happen, no plans, just the two of us spending his bdae together. bd he did suspect tt i planned smth for him. plus i kept smsing after we met. had to report location. lols.we reached there after awhile. i was suppose to put suntann oil for him and then jacky and the gang will come and throw him into the sea. in the end, what happened was, he said he wanted to go to the toilet, then as we were walking there, the whole grp of them ran out. ben, jacky, kenneth, adrain, went out to get him. strip him and threw him into the water. tifi, jill, rai, alicia gt me. and i was too thrown in. i expected it. hahahs. alrites. then we all sat in the water and talk. i made all confessions. okae. soon after, we went to put our stuff. played sm games. suntanned with him, went into the water with him.

bbq started ard 6 plus. wee seng, shahrul, gi and leang came. we cut the cake then we played truth or dare. drank in the meanwhile. we all had fun. everyone took the monorail together. made alot of noise and all. went for a walk at the beach while the guys went to play beach volley. he told me alot of things. was rrly touched. they mean a whole lot to me. really. i chilled out with the girls after he came back while he played beach soccer. me n jill chilled in the tent too. with a can of heineken each and a packet of chips. talked and all. spent the whole night with dearie in the tent. he was tired and wanted to slp. i accompanied him. talked alot too. we came out a few times to eat and talk with the rest. chilled out by the beach in the morning. all of us went eat at habour front. all of us includes jill, ws, shahrul, jacky, ben, kenneth, adrain. i was having a gastric and i felt really bad. really bad. i slpt in the train on my way back. first time i rrly fall aslp in the train. i was tt tired and my gastric was tt bad. he sent me hm in a taxi. and ya. tt's abt all.

i had a great day. im sure u too. we've spent more than 24 hrs together for the first time. i have more memories to add to nw. i know deep inside tt if anyth shld happen to us this time round, it will be even harder for me to stand up on my own agn. i knew it. i wont ever be able to forget uu and i know, if we were to go our own ways, next time, no matter hw wonderful my next bf can be, the memories tt i will have with him, can nvr beat what i've been thru with uu. there's just too many things to forget. i wont ever want to forget anyth. even the quarrels and all. cos they play a part in our r/s. u've been in my life for ard 2 yrs for nw. it may be short or long, bd, u play a big part.

i love uu.

-tina.

big thank you to everyone esp my darling!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-06-19T14:03:00.000+08:00

alrite alrite.. that was my best birthday yet. it was awesome. you know it's like after the surprise i was still in shock for like 30 mins at least. honestly. never had i expected that coming.. well done man.. they threw me into the sea and i was still so clean, but nvm, it's ok. =D then just sat around the water, trying to clear my doubts with my darling. so many questions to ask. hahaa. she wrote most of the things already. ya.. read on that.

-nel.

birthday

2004-06-17T19:10:00.000+08:00

weeee.. my birthday is tomorrow.. wonder what will my darling be doing. the anticipation is killing me. whatever the outcome will be, it will definitely be one heck of a fun day.

-nel.

2004-06-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

Marie Carey. 98 degrees.
Thank God i Found uu.

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate
Myself from you
After so much suffering
I finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself
For the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
I don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Cause I need you in my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain
To appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby
I'm so thankful
I found you

[ i miss u. badly.]

-tina.

miss uu.

2004-06-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

thns for calling me tonight. we only talked for like only 2 mins or so. i wld love to talk to uu longer bd its okae. im happy tt we talked. its enuf. hee.
3 more days and u'll be back. i miss uu!

-tina.

leaving me.

2004-06-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

i know its just gonna be 4 days. just 4 days, tt's it. and ure gonna be back agn, beside me. literally. accompanying me to wherever place i wld want to go, talking to me every night before i go to bed, asking me to drink water and stuff, msging me and all. i know im gonna miss u really badly. truckloads. yes. tt's for sure. pls come back safely. have lots of fun there, enjoy urself. maybe miss me alittle at night. tt's all i wish for. even tho u said u will call me if possible.

im beginning to appreciate u more and more. nt tt i don't in the past. just more. i've been taking all tt u have done into account, kping everyth in my mind. im totally aware of what u've done for me, what u've been doing actually. small things even. they mean a whole lot.

dear, im sorie for what i've said just nw. i really don mean it tt way. i don't refer to neth yea. i guess u know what i mean.
i trust uu. i rrly do.

i love uuu!!! .

-tina.

ecp2

2004-06-11T11:30:00.000+08:00

yea. as my dear was saying. we went ecp. had really lots and lots of fun. the sun was gd, the company was gd, everyth was great!! hee. i enjoyed myself. big tym man. guess i haven't had sooo much fun in a long while.

thns dear, for being sooo wonderfully nice to me. thns for sacrificing. thns for everyth tt u have done. i appreciate everyth and i will definitely kp them in my heart.
*muaks.

ure leaving tmr. shall write smth for u here tonight.

miss uu!!

-tina.

ECP

2004-06-11T11:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. we went east coast park yesterday.. to blade obviously, her favourite. by the way, i don't know how to blade. anyway, we met at yck bus terminal and she was late. made me rushed so fast for nothing and as a result forgot to do certain stuff. but nvm, getting used to it. hahaha.. =] took an hour long ride there. ate mac for lunch. at far i saw this pink figure walking towards our direction and it looked like rai, and it was really her. O_O right on. after that i was supposed to cycle, was quite reluctant initially because the bikes there totally totally totally suck! she bladed as i cycled, was simple but cool. after those, we went to the rock area there to sit and just enjoy each others presence. it was really fun. sadly, it was time to chao, went to 7eleven to get some snacks and drinks. boarded the bus and vroooooooom, we're home. =D

-nel.

yeah.

2004-06-08T15:25:00.000+08:00

ooo..yesterday's entry was kinda depressing yea?? definitely i suppose. anyway. we sorta cleared up everyth and say whatever we want to say just nw. im rrly glad tt everyth is over. rrly glad. so yea.
and guess what?? i miss him!!!!!
*winks.

ahhh..nd to ciaos! meeting muh babes and teachers!! i'll be back!

-tina.

once.

2004-06-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

erms. well. im drinking a glass of red wine here, thinking hw exactly i shld pen dwn hw im feeling right nw.. its diff to describe. yea. it does.

i just ended a call with him. and ya.

many things had been happening for the past few days, causing much misery to the bth of us. things tt neither of us wish to happen, things tt maybe i cld have avoided. i don't know what else i shld say abt all these, i don't know hw to control where all my feelings or my heart is leading me to. i have quite alot of things on my mind nw. weird. maybe tt's what u call me. weird. tt's hw im feeling too. and tt's becos of a mixture of all kinds of feelings. im sorie.

im sorie, i can never handle this kind of things calmly, and optimistically. its smth tt i can nvr do, esp if it concerns u.
u mean too much to me, tt's why i can't stop worrying.

maybe i shld learn to take control of all my emotions, maybe i shld try to remove the gut feeling tt i have inside me. maybe all these will help to make our r/s a better one.

-tina.

2004-06-04T20:31:00.000+08:00

Jessica Simpson
Take My Breathe Away.

Watchin' every motion
In this foolish lovers game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turnin' and returnin'
To some secret place inside
Watchin' in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watchin' I keep waiting
Still anticipatin' love
Never hesitatin'
To become the fated ones
Turnin' and returnin'
To some secret place inside
Watchin' in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid

Take my breath away
You take my breath away
You take my breath
You take my breath
You take my breath
Away
You take my breath away (repeat til' fade)

we just seem to hear this song whenever we're talking or when we're together or smth huh. wonder wassup. well. yea. shall blog agn ltr.
i miss uu.

-tina.

(",)

2004-06-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

i understand why you said those things.. so do not worry. trust me, it won't happen again. no matter how angry am i with you, when i think about our love, it'll definitely soften my heart. =D

-nel.

im sorie

2004-06-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

we went woodlands library today after remedial. had delifrance for lunch.

dear dear, im sorie abt what i've said in the afternoon. really sorie. i don mean it. im going to try my best to explain agn, even tho i think u've forgive me.
the other tym when u went away for 5 days, u left me for 1 yr plus. im just afraid the same thing will happen agn. u mean too much to me tt i wont allow u to leave me agn. i had to say tt because i know if i don, i'll think abt it in sm way or another. plus, like what we've promised each other, we're gonna let each other know everyth yea?? i don want uu to think tt im kping smth frm u.
i trust u dear. alot. bt there's just the fear. i noe ure hurt. im sorie.

i love u to the bits and pieces.

-tina.

1st

2004-06-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. alrite.. we're watching miss universe 2004 now. although i did say i like black hair girls. but australia was really hot! hahaha..

yesteday you came over to my house, took a bus all alone just to visit me. you took the lift which something you don't feel good abt. you bought me 'liang teh'. fed me porridge. lending your lap for me to lie. just simply taking care of me. it was great, awesome. more that what anyone could ask for. you rock!

you've seen my lowest and my highest point in my life.. through it all, you're always there for me. this is why i always love you.

-nel.

Happy 2nd Mth anniversary.

2004-06-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

Bet u must be slping soundly now. Poor sick boy. hahas. You better take good care of urself. It hurts to see you sick yea? Erms anyway, going to ur hs to visit u today was just smth tt i want to do. smth tt i wld love to do. im willing to do whatever i can to make u feel better. *smile

Happy Anniversary dear dear. Thanks for being so understanding. Thanks for being with me and taking care of me all the time. You mean alot to me. There's always a place for uu in my heart. No matter what. No matter when.

i love you.

-tina.